My Christmas Eve

Where many people are busily preparing for their noche buena and waiting for Christmas to come, i was just sitting in front of my laptop, thinking of what to do, am i just gonna lie down, sit and watch t.v or cry until i can't cry no more..

When everybody is happy and excited, im getting depressed more and more, i can't seem to get myself in the christmas spirit.. Im so sad, so down, so blue.. I want to get out of this slump that im in, but i can't seem to get out.. Everytime i try, it seems that something is pulling me back..

Am i in denial? When the only thing that can make me happy and get out of this depression that im in right now is to hear that he still loves me and that he still wants to be with me the rest of my life.. But how can i not be in denial when all i feel right now the exact opposite of what i want it to be..

Songs That Best Describe Me Now

Muli
by: Gary Valenciano with Regine Velasquez

[Gary]
Muling hinahanap
Ang dating paglingap na mula sa'yo
Muling umaasa Sa dating nadaramang laan sa'yo
Mula ng magwakas, tapusin ang lahat
Ay naritong nagmamahal pa rin
Pa'no kaya maibabalik
Ang damdamin mong dati

[Regine]
'Di ba't ikaw pa
Unang may nais na tapusin na
Habang panahon
Pinilit limutin ka hanggang ngayon
Mula ng magwakas, tapusin ng lahat
Hindi maikakailang ikaw pa rin
Papa'no kaya maibabalik
Ang hangaring dati

[Both]
Refrain: Ba't di nagkatagpo
Bakit tuloy nagkalayo
Bakit mayro'n pang nadarama
Gayong hindi na tayong dalawa
Bakit magwawakas
Pag-ibig na wagas
Ma'ri bang mangyari pang
Ibigin pang...Muli

[Regine]
Kung muling iibigin
H'wag sanang lisanin nang tulad noon
Pagluha'y di na kaya
H'wag na sanang isipin nang tulad gayon

[Gary]
Hanggang sa nagwakas,
Natapos ang lahat
Ay naritong nagmamahal pa rin
Paano pa ba maibabalik
Ang hangaring dati (Ma'ri pa kayang muli....)

[Both]
REFRAIN: Ba't di nagkatagpo
Bakit tuloy nagkalayo
Bakit mayro'n pang nadarama
Gayong hindi na tayong dalawa
Bakit magwawakas
Pag-ibig na wagas
Ma'ri bang mangyari pang Ibigin pang...
Muli Nandito lang ako (bago lumayo sa pilling mo)
Higit kang kailangan kailan man (hanggang kailan kaya naman)
Mahala kita (tila) hanap ka (sana) (tunay kaya ito)
Minsan pang bigyan ng daan
Pag-ibig na sa'yo nakalaan

[Both]
REFRAIN:
Ba't di nagkatagpo
Bakit tuloy nagkalayo
Bakit mayro'n pang nadarama
Gayong hindi na tayong dalawa
Bakit magwawakas
Pag-ibig na wagas
Ma'ri bang mangyari pang Ibigin pang... Muli


Each Passing Night
by: Gary Valenciano

Each passing night
I try and close my eyes
But thoughts of you
They wake me up
And tear me inside out

Each passing night
I ask myself who's right
And try to find the reasons why
It had to end that night

Didn't we share each other's dreams
We held each other tight
And tears fell from my eyes
As you walked and left me here
Like the wind you passed me by
I try but I can't see
If it's something that
I said Baby please won't you tell me now
it gets harder each passing night

I often pray
That you'd come back and stay
We've had too much together
To ever live a part
I'll wait and see
'Cause I know and I believe
Someday you'll come to realize
What you and I can be

Then we'll share each other's dreams
We'll held each other tight
Kiss the tears that burn my eyes
'Cause you walked and left me here

Like the wind you passed me by
I try but I can't see
If it's something that I said
Baby, please won't you tell me now
'Cause it gets harder each passing night

I never meant to hurt your heart this way
Sooner or later
There'd be someone else who'd stay

Didn't we share each other's dreams
(share each other's dreams)
You tear me inside out
(and tears fell from my eyes)
Someday you'd realize
(as you walked and left me here)

Like the wind you passed me by (
I try but I can't see)
Kiss the tears that burn my eyes
(Baby please won't you tell me now)
'Cause it gets harder each passing night
(I try but I can't see)
I try but I can't see
(Kiss the tears that burn my eyes)
Please tell me baby
(Please won't you tell me now) '
Cause it gets harder each passing night

It gets harder each passing night
It gets harder each passing night
It gets harder each passing night
Let your love bring back the light
{ till fade }