It was a moment of indecisiveness. I was thinking if i would go through it or chicken out again. I mustered my courage and started to punch a message in my cellphone. I was very nervous, i was scared that it would go unnoticed if i send it, in the first place im not in someway connected to the person i would text though if given a chance we would be somewhat connected to each other.
After what it seemed more or less 30 mins, eventhough ive already finished typing my message, i was still having second thoughts if im going to send it or not. Finally, after waiting for another 10 minutes, i couragely punched the send button then i started to pray and hope that it would be replied. In about 2 minutes, i saw my cellphone glow, it was a moment of truth for me. When i saw that there was a message for me, i was a nevous wreck.. Kiana, Nathan's sister and my confidant when it comes to problems with Nathan, replied.. I was so relieved and i was teary eyed, i was so glad and happy that she replied. We talked for a while, the i asked how Nathan was doing, she said that he's ok, but is always drunk, then she asked me if we have a fight or misunderstanding, i was honest to say to her that we indeed have a problem, then we talked about it, then she assured me that everything is going to be fine. I was hoping hat that would be the case.
Then at around 11:52pm, Nathan texted me, i was so happy yet i was also nervous, i don't know what will happen, if we will be ok or its going to be the end. I asked so many questions, and he answered everything i asked him. And when i asked him if i still have his heart and if im still part of his life, he answered YES! When i saw his answer, i was crying from relief and happiness, i know i didn't stand firm with my resolve, but what can i do, i really love him, so much that i can endure all just for us not to part ways.. He is my only love, my world and my life..
